Is your life stranger than fiction? What would you do if you found out you were going to die soon? Is there any unfinished business that you would want to clear up before you die?
My friends came over for dinner and a movie tonight. We watched Stranger Than Fiction (http://www.sonypictures.com/homevideo/strangerthanfiction/). It's about a guy who is a character in a book. He finds out he's going to die at the end of the book. He tries to stop it from happening.
It really made me think about my life. Is it pre-written or pre-determined? If it is, do I want to know the outcome? I know I will eventually die. Do I really want to know how or when? Between now and when I die what have I done? Have I lived a happy life? If I find out when and where I die, will I prevent it from happening or let it happen?
I read that there is a library of everyone's life. My book of life could be written for me. I don't want to know the ending. If I read my book of life, then my life will not be worth living anymore. My life is all about experiences. It can be good ones or bad ones. It is about meeting people and how they influence my life. Everyone comes into my life for a reason. Even if they have given me one piece of advice, they have influenced and shaped my life.
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Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Day 25: No more 'what if?'
Life is about taking risks. There are risks that make you really uncomfortable ('high risk'). There are really 'safe' risks. Which would you rather take? For me, it depends on what it is. But the safer risks are 'safer' and more stable. You know the outcome to it. The 'high risk' activity has an unpredictable outcome and a greater level of fear. Fear is something I want to overcome. The conservative side of me would be taking the safer risks. BUT then I think about 'what if I took the high risk route?'
I have some mutual funds. I think they are distributed evenly with the safe risk and high risk funds. I can control my life more than I can control my mutual funds. There are too many variables that effect the outcome of my mutual fund. With my life, I control which direction to go. I don't want to live my life thinking 'what if...?'
During high school a new guy transferred into my school. He was in one of my classes. He was so cute (at least at that time I thought he was). I don't think I talked to him much. I was too shy. But I thought 'what if I talked to him?' Maybe we would've developed more of a friendship and maybe we would even end up dating..who knows?
I went skydiving in 1998. The conservative side in me would've wanted me to stay home. I would be warm and safe in my house. Skydiving was one of the things I wanted to do before I die. (At that time I didn't have a bucket list) I was thinking: what if the plane crashed on the way up? what if the cord didn't come out at the right time? what if i break a bone when I land? So many 'what if' questions. The only way for me to find out was to jump out of that plane and experience it myself.
I don't want to encounter the 'what if' situation anymore. I don't want to think about the endless possibilities.I will not let fear take over. Life is too short to be taking the 'safe' route all the time. The safest route I can take in my life is to go to work, go home, have dinner, watch tv, write on my blog and sleep. Sounds pretty boring to me. Then I would be at home thinking 'what if I went out and met the guy of my dreams?' or 'what if I went out and encountered someone who will change my life forever?' .......... No more 'what if...'
I have some mutual funds. I think they are distributed evenly with the safe risk and high risk funds. I can control my life more than I can control my mutual funds. There are too many variables that effect the outcome of my mutual fund. With my life, I control which direction to go. I don't want to live my life thinking 'what if...?'
During high school a new guy transferred into my school. He was in one of my classes. He was so cute (at least at that time I thought he was). I don't think I talked to him much. I was too shy. But I thought 'what if I talked to him?' Maybe we would've developed more of a friendship and maybe we would even end up dating..who knows?
I went skydiving in 1998. The conservative side in me would've wanted me to stay home. I would be warm and safe in my house. Skydiving was one of the things I wanted to do before I die. (At that time I didn't have a bucket list) I was thinking: what if the plane crashed on the way up? what if the cord didn't come out at the right time? what if i break a bone when I land? So many 'what if' questions. The only way for me to find out was to jump out of that plane and experience it myself.
I don't want to encounter the 'what if' situation anymore. I don't want to think about the endless possibilities.I will not let fear take over. Life is too short to be taking the 'safe' route all the time. The safest route I can take in my life is to go to work, go home, have dinner, watch tv, write on my blog and sleep. Sounds pretty boring to me. Then I would be at home thinking 'what if I went out and met the guy of my dreams?' or 'what if I went out and encountered someone who will change my life forever?' .......... No more 'what if...'
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Day 20: Past experiences
I believe my past has shaped me to be the person I am today. I am not a perfect person. I have done wrong things in my past. I have done things I have regretted. The important thing is for me to learn from what I have done and move on. I still think about something I have done in grade 3 that I regretted. I would like to put closure to that incident, but how? The girl that was in the situation with me is one of my friends on Facebook now. It is a coincidence that we have mutual friends. I did send her a message saying HI but I didn't say anything about what happened. Will she remember what I did to her in grade 3? I know that was eons ago and maybe she forgot about it. I don't want to bring it up if she has forgotten about it.
What I should do is put everything in my past where it belongs, in the past. I don't know the best way to get them out of my head sometimes. I know with every incident that has happened to me I have learned something. Some incidents happened when I was a young child. Some incidents happened recently. Some incidents I take a long time to realize what the lesson is. Some incidents it takes 5 minutes to learn the lesson. One way to get it out of my head is to talk about it. Sometimes I don't think anyone would be interested in my stories that happened 20 years ago. Another way of getting it out of my head would be to write it down on a piece of paper and burn it. I think everything that has happened to me happened for a reason if it is for the better or for the worse. Sometimes I have to fall hard to get up and rise to become a better person.
I am still young and I will learn more lessons about life. But I can take the lessons I have learnt and apply it wherever and whenever I can. I hopefully will not make the same mistakes again. Life is a journey and I have to take it as it comes.
What I should do is put everything in my past where it belongs, in the past. I don't know the best way to get them out of my head sometimes. I know with every incident that has happened to me I have learned something. Some incidents happened when I was a young child. Some incidents happened recently. Some incidents I take a long time to realize what the lesson is. Some incidents it takes 5 minutes to learn the lesson. One way to get it out of my head is to talk about it. Sometimes I don't think anyone would be interested in my stories that happened 20 years ago. Another way of getting it out of my head would be to write it down on a piece of paper and burn it. I think everything that has happened to me happened for a reason if it is for the better or for the worse. Sometimes I have to fall hard to get up and rise to become a better person.
I am still young and I will learn more lessons about life. But I can take the lessons I have learnt and apply it wherever and whenever I can. I hopefully will not make the same mistakes again. Life is a journey and I have to take it as it comes.
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Day 18: Individuality
"I live in my own little WORLD. But it's ok...they know ME here."
I bought a plaque with that inscribed on it. I bought it at Target when I was down in California. My sister and I were in a section where they sell items with inspirational and funny sayings on mugs and plaques. I saw this one and laughed really hard and bought it. My sister was laughing too but when I decided to buy it she was a bit worried. She thought I may have dual personalities or just thought I was crazy.
The plaque sits on my shelf. I see it everyday. It makes more of a difference to me everyday. As I get older I realize that I don't have to conform to anyone or anything. I am me. I am an individual. I don't have to impress anyone. I don't give into peer pressure anymore. I have friends from all walks of life. Trying to conform to everyone will just be silly and time consuming. I guess this goes back to 'I'm too lazy'....hahaha... I guess this is the one time where the excuse 'I'm too lazy' works in my benefit.
When I was young I was trying to figure out what I like and what I don't like. I would 'push' myself sometimes to like what others were liking because they were 'cool'. That took alot of effort. I didn't end up liking what I 'pushed' myself to like. I have decided that I like what I like for a reason. I may try something new and maybe like that, but I don't know it yet.
My friends like me for who I am. I have some friends who I have been friends with for many years. They wouldn't be my friend if we didn't have anything in common or have fun hanging out together. I have had a lot of trouble finding the 'right' significant other. I sometimes try to impress them or be someone who I think they want to be with. I have decided that doing that has to stop. I have to find someone who likes me for who I am. Life is too short.
I bought a plaque with that inscribed on it. I bought it at Target when I was down in California. My sister and I were in a section where they sell items with inspirational and funny sayings on mugs and plaques. I saw this one and laughed really hard and bought it. My sister was laughing too but when I decided to buy it she was a bit worried. She thought I may have dual personalities or just thought I was crazy.
The plaque sits on my shelf. I see it everyday. It makes more of a difference to me everyday. As I get older I realize that I don't have to conform to anyone or anything. I am me. I am an individual. I don't have to impress anyone. I don't give into peer pressure anymore. I have friends from all walks of life. Trying to conform to everyone will just be silly and time consuming. I guess this goes back to 'I'm too lazy'....hahaha... I guess this is the one time where the excuse 'I'm too lazy' works in my benefit.
When I was young I was trying to figure out what I like and what I don't like. I would 'push' myself sometimes to like what others were liking because they were 'cool'. That took alot of effort. I didn't end up liking what I 'pushed' myself to like. I have decided that I like what I like for a reason. I may try something new and maybe like that, but I don't know it yet.
My friends like me for who I am. I have some friends who I have been friends with for many years. They wouldn't be my friend if we didn't have anything in common or have fun hanging out together. I have had a lot of trouble finding the 'right' significant other. I sometimes try to impress them or be someone who I think they want to be with. I have decided that doing that has to stop. I have to find someone who likes me for who I am. Life is too short.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
365 Day Challenge
This is the first day of the 365 Day Challenge. This challenge is about working on my bucket list every day for the next 365 days. This is a commitment to myself that I can achieve everything on my bucket list. My bucket list is a list of things to do before I die. I do not want to die anytime soon. But when I die, I would like to know that I have accomplished the things I have always wanted to do. I may not be able to cross off all 100 things off my list by the time I die, but I would like cross of 50 - 75 % of the items on my list.
The 365 Day Challenge is about working on my bucket list. For the next 365 days, I will spend at least 10 mins a day on my bucket list. It will range from doing an activity on the list to researching something on my bucket list. Some items will be a one time thing (paragliding) and some items are more long term (live in the now).
I will be writing in this journal every day. Learning to write is on my bucket list. I will be writing about anything on my mind. It will range from my family, my thoughts about my day or my feelings about my past or my thoughts on anything else.
I have to get to bed. I will be trimming my hair tomorrow. They say that cutting your hair will make your hair grow longer / faster. I am hoping to grow my hair longer to donate it to cancer patients or to shave it off to raise money for cancer.
The 365 Day Challenge is about working on my bucket list. For the next 365 days, I will spend at least 10 mins a day on my bucket list. It will range from doing an activity on the list to researching something on my bucket list. Some items will be a one time thing (paragliding) and some items are more long term (live in the now).
I will be writing in this journal every day. Learning to write is on my bucket list. I will be writing about anything on my mind. It will range from my family, my thoughts about my day or my feelings about my past or my thoughts on anything else.
I have to get to bed. I will be trimming my hair tomorrow. They say that cutting your hair will make your hair grow longer / faster. I am hoping to grow my hair longer to donate it to cancer patients or to shave it off to raise money for cancer.
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